It Must Be About Time To Go Emo?

Break ups always suck, I haven't been through very many, ok I've been through two. But that's not the point, as my most recent one was the ending of my almost three year relationship with Heather. I don't remember if I already wrote about it in depth, but really I don’t care and I can go over things twice or thrice if I want to!
We broke up because we were drifting different ways and she was feeling a bit suffocated by my overbearing personality. We broke up when I left for Auckland, pretty much giving her 30 minutes notice that I was going away for the week. The next day in the van I knew it was pretty much over.
Dealing with it getting back has been weird, we did the whole “we’re single we can sleep with whom ever we want including each other” line, but that stopped awhile ago and now we’re trying to figure out how to deal with each other. Because the fact of the matter is we still get on and we’re still good friends, so much so that we did some midnight poster runs for bitchcraft last night without any shenanigans. I still really dig here but some times you just gotta go on with life and deal with things. This all leads to my next major problem. I’m so out of touch with the whole romance thing it’s not FUNNY. It's been weird, as now there's a big gap where Heather used to be...

I spent my college years as first a tiny picked on 3rd/4th former at an all boys school, I progressed to the gawky and ungainly 5th/6th form bully stage and finally got sick of the whole thing by 7th. As I was at an all boys school and had little contact with the ladies from my primary school haunt, I was very socially inept. Drunken parties didn’t help and neither did the usually awkward shyness hidden by false brashness. I had a 3 month relationship and then it was onto Heather. Curious note: I have never gone out with anyone who was not a Heather, how’s that for a niche aye?!
So anyway I’m in bachelor land at the mo and I’m trying to figure out how to go, do I spend an age waiting for the Ms. Right (sorry but I just don’t rate the chances of a Mr. Right, you can place your bets, but just like betting on the first 2006 VUWSA execer to buckle, in both cases I put myself as a longshot) or just go about my merry wild way until I wake up and figure out we’ve been going out for an awful long time making it a proper relationship.
So now with my pretty crap socialising/spading skills already pretty under strength as it was ala the French army pre WWII. Three years of little usage has rendered what little I had rusty, leaving me in a similar situation as the French army after their surrender in 1940…

Enough navel gazing. I’ve got work to do! The planning stages of a Vic Radio Station, which I so want to do just as a told-you-so to all the people, who just think it can’t be done e.g. “do Active actually own their frequency?” “Of course they do!” “ummmm I can’t find anything that says they do and the way Active describe their ownership of the frequency leads me to think it’s still ours, they just don’t want us to know we own it…” “It still can’t be done”.
If anyone out there wants to have some input, excluding the fact most of the people who read this are mid-20’s looking for love a good job and something else quite intangible in no particular order. Buzz me a line at joel (dot) cosgrove (at) vuwsa (dot) org (dot) nz